I Choose Today...

I Choose Today to Return to My First Love

I almost didn’t record this episode. Not because I didn’t have time… but because I didn’t feel like I had anything to give. I just got back from a trip to Colorado. It was full, full of people, full of moments, full of connection. At the end of my trip, I attended the Kerygma Conference in Hendersonville, Tennessee. Over a thousand women gathered together, powerful messages, beautiful worship. And yet… if I’m being completely honest, I still felt distant. Not from people. From the Lord. That’s hard to admit, because I never want this space to feel negative or heavy. But I’ve learned something important, if I only show up when everything feels strong and steady, then I’m not inviting you into a real walk with God. I’m inviting you into a filtered version of one. So today, I’m not coming to you full. I’m coming to you honest. And for me, this is what it’s looked like. Before I stepped into ministry, I was pouring into the people around me, but it came out of the natural rhythm of life. It wasn’t forced. It wasn’t constant. It just flowed from being with the Lord. But somewhere along the way,

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I Choose Today to Keep Going When It Feels Slow

Sometimes perseverance isn’t hard because life is overwhelming… Sometimes it’s hard because nothing seems to be happening. Slow growth. Slow answers. Slow change. And slow can be discouraging. Because we like progress. We like movement. We like seeing results. But God often works differently. He works slowly. And slow does not mean stagnant. It does not mean God isn’t working. In fact, slow often means God is building something deeper. I think about seeds. When you plant a seed, you don’t immediately see growth. There’s a season where everything is happening beneath the surface. Roots are forming. Strength is developing. But you can’t see it yet. And that’s what perseverance often looks like. Continuing to trust… even when you don’t see. Continuing to walk… even when nothing seems to be changing. I once heard about a type of bamboo that grows in a fascinating way. For years, nothing appears above the surface. You water it. You care for it. You nurture it. And still… nothing. It would be easy to assume nothing is happening. But during that time, something is happening. Roots are growing deep. A foundation is being formed. And then, after years of unseen growth, it suddenly shoots

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I Choose Today to Stand When I Feel Weary

There’s a kind of weariness that doesn’t come from one hard moment… It comes from showing up day after day. From carrying responsibility. From holding things together. From continuing to move forward… even when your strength feels low. And if I’m being honest… I’ve been feeling that lately. Not in a dramatic way. Not in a crisis. Just… weary. And maybe you’ve felt that too. You’re still showing up. You’re still doing what needs to be done. But it’s getting harder. And the question becomes… how do we keep going when we feel like we’re running on empty? Because perseverance sounds good in theory… But in real life, it can feel exhausting. Paul writes about this kind of weariness when he says that outwardly we may feel like we’re wasting away… but inwardly, something else is happening. Something is being renewed. And I think that’s what we miss sometimes. We focus on how we feel on the outside… But God is working on the inside. Strengthening. Renewing. Sustaining. Not always in ways we can see… But in ways that matter deeply. Because perseverance isn’t about having endless strength. It’s about staying anchored when your strength feels limited. Isaiah reminds us

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I Choose Today to Trust in the Waiting

Waiting can feel like one of the hardest parts of our faith journey. Not because we’re doing nothing… But because we don’t know what God is doing. We find ourselves in seasons where prayers feel unanswered. Direction feels unclear. Progress feels slow. And if we’re honest… it can feel like nothing is happening. But what if something is happening? What if the waiting isn’t empty… but intentional? I’ve been in a season like that recently. I haven’t sensed a clear direction yet for what’s next. And if you’re anything like me, that can feel uncomfortable. I like to have a plan. I like to know where I’m going. But sometimes God doesn’t give us the full picture. Sometimes He asks us to wait. And that’s where perseverance becomes real. Not in the doing… But in the trusting. Isaiah reminds us that those who wait on the Lord will have their strength renewed. Not by striving harder… but by remaining anchored in Him. Waiting isn’t passive. It’s not sitting back and doing nothing. It’s an active, intentional choice to trust God when you don’t have answers. It’s choosing to believe He is working… even when you don’t see it. Psalm 27

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I Choose Today to Obey, Even When It’s Uncomfortable

As I was reading Acts 10 during a devotional, something caught my attention. It wasn’t just the vision Peter had, it was what came next. Because what God asked Peter to do wasn’t just unusual. It was uncomfortable. Eat With Sinners “The next day as Cornelius’s messengers were nearing the town, Peter went up on the flat roof to pray. It was about noon, and he was hungry. But while a meal was being prepared, he fell into a trance.…Then a voice said to him, ‘Get up, Peter; kill and eat them.’ ‘No, Lord,’ Peter declared. ‘I have never eaten anything that our Jewish laws have declared impure and unclean.’ But the voice spoke again: ‘Do not call something unclean if God has made it clean.’” Acts 10:9–15, NLT In the Old Testament, God gave His people specific instructions to remain set apart. Dietary laws and boundaries around marriage with surrounding nations were meant to protect them from idolatry and preserve the lineage through which the Messiah would come. It wasn’t about superiority, it was about protection and purpose. But something radical shifts in Acts 10. Until this point, the gospel had reached Jerusalem, Judea, and Samaria, just as Jesus

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