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Even in the Silence, He Is There (As featured on (in)courage)

The world didn’t stop. It kept turning, kept moving forward, as though nothing had changed. But for me, everything had. I remember stepping outside that tragic morning, my heart shattered beyond words. My neighbor stood in his yard, watering his flowers, exclaiming about what a beautiful June day it was. I could barely comprehend his words. How could anything be beautiful in this moment? My voice came out flat, almost detached from the reality crashing around me:“Well, my son just died, so I don’t know how beautiful a day it is.” Grief has a way of making everything around you feel distant, like you’re watching life from behind a thick pane of glass. You see it, but you’re not part of it. You exist in a different space—one that is heavy with sorrow and filled with deafening silence. Had God forgotten me? I had always believed in His presence, but grief has a way of testing even the deepest faith. If God was with me, why did I feel so alone? Why did my prayers seem to go unanswered? And how was I even supposed to pray in this kind of pain? What does one say to the Almighty when

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I Choose Today to Drop the Labels Episode 6 – The I Choose Today Series

Have you ever carried a label that someone else gave you? One that stuck to your heart and became part of how you saw yourself? Maybe it was a word spoken in anger, or a judgment passed down that made its way into your identity. Sometimes, the labels aren’t even names people call us—they’re words we use to summarize our own pain. “Lazy.” “Too emotional.” “Not enough.” I’ve carried some of those labels, too. And for a long time, one of the most painful was the word “stupid.” That label was spoken over me when I was young, and it shaped how I walked into school, how I viewed challenges, and how I saw myself in the world. I was placed in a “remedial” group because I didn’t learn the way others did, and the system didn’t know what to do with that. Instead of getting the help I needed, I was just passed along—and the label followed me from grade to grade. By the time I reached high school, I wasn’t reading above a fifth-grade level. I didn’t understand grammar or composition. And even though something deep inside me whispered, “That’s not who you are,” I still wondered if

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I Choose Today to Trust the Power of the In-Between The Ordinary Series – Part 6

As believers, when it comes to Easter, we focus on Good Friday, when Jesus died for the sins of the world, and Easter Sunday, when He rose from the grave to defeat death once and for all. Both of these days deserve every ounce of our awe and celebration. They are the visible markers of love and victory—the cross where the price was paid and the empty tomb where death was disarmed. But what about the day in-between? What about Saturday? That ordinary, quiet, grief-stricken day between the heartbreak and the miracle. The day when heaven seemed silent and hope felt buried. The day most of us skip over… but shouldn’t. Because even though it looked like nothing was happening, everything was already in motion. Scripture gives us a glimpse behind the veil: “He was put to death in the body but made alive in the Spirit. After being made alive, He went and made proclamation to the imprisoned spirits…” —1 Peter 3:18–19 Jesus didn’t wait for Sunday to start moving. He didn’t rest in death. He descended into the very den of death itself—and declared victory. To the author of death. To the powers of darkness. To the realm

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Podcast Episode 4: I Choose Today to Walk Toward Healing

There are some episodes that go beyond teaching. They come from the sacred places of personal experience—the moments you didn’t think you’d survive but somehow did. That’s what this one is. In this episode of I Choose Today, I’m sharing a very personal part of my healing journey. A moment that changed me. A moment that brought me to the end of myself—and to the feet of Jesus. After the loss of my son to SIDS, I was broken in ways I didn’t yet understand. I was functioning, showing up, caring for my two-year-old daughter—but I wasn’t present. I was numb. Surviving. Until one ordinary afternoon when I completely broke. In the aftermath of an emotional outburst, I found myself sobbing on the edge of a bathtub, whispering the words, “Lord, help.” That moment became the start of something. It was the whisper that began a healing journey—a moment of raw surrender that cracked open the numbness and let Jesus in. Painful. But holy. This episode is for the ones still carrying pain. The ones who have walked through abuse, betrayal, loss, abandonment, rejection. It’s for the ones who are bleeding on the inside and smiling on the outside. You are

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I Choose Today to Recognize the Good

“Every good and perfect gift is from above…” James 1:17 (NIV) I don’t always recognize the good. Not because it’s not there, but because I’m often too distracted to notice it. But God’s goodness? It hasn’t stopped flowing — even when life has felt heavy, or lonely, or hard. It’s not always loud or obvious. Sometimes it looks like a kind word, an unexpected text, a quiet morning, or strength for one more step. I remember when I was really sick for a long time. I had friend just show up with some soup and vitamins. She sat with me and just chatted for a while. It didn’t fix anything, but it reminded me that God hadn’t left. That even in my hard moments, His goodness still found me. Moments like that have changed the way I see things. Because when we train our eyes to look for His goodness, we begin to realize how present He’s always been. Romans 8:28 says that God works all things together for good — not just the pleasant or easy things. That means the pain, the waiting, the uncertainty — none of it is wasted. He’s working even when we don’t feel it,

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