I Choose Today to Show Up

Last week, we talked about how Satan tormented Jesus when He was in a weakened state, (see “I Choose Today to Fix My Mind”). Last year I was in a weakened state and Satan took his opportunity to torment me.

I had the perception of being stuck, unmotivated by almost everything, including my work, relationships, and even my walk with the Lord. It seemed I was going through the motions without feeling. I lived like I was lost, and I didn’t know what to do about it.

Satan was telling me I held no value, I didn’t measure up. He reminded me of all the negative talk spoken to me from my early years. He was tormenting me in my weakened state.

I can remember taking a walk and crying out to the Lord! Literally crying out! You know what happened? He met me where I was. All I had the energy to do was show up. That is what I heard God speak to my heart.

So, I would show up to quiet time and He was there. He was there to listen. He was there to start the healing of my heart. He was there to show me the things that were causing the perception of being stuck. He was there to not only restore my faith, but He made it stronger. He not only redeemed my motivation for my relationships and work, but He gave me a passion to empower others through their weakened states. Most of all, He redeemed my relationship with Him and it became more intimate.

And all I did at first (all I had in me to do) was show up.

I had a friend remind me of a song that helped her when she was going through a similar situation. It is Defender by Francesca Battistelli (link below). The bridge says,

“When I thought I lost me

You knew where I left me

You reintroduced me to Your love

You picked up all my pieces

Put me back together

You are the defender of my heart”

Ultimately, my journey through a weakened state taught me the power of simply showing up, even when all I had left was a cry for help. Through that vulnerability, God met me where I was and began the process of healing and restoration. As I leaned into His presence, He not only redeemed my faith and motivation but also ignited a passion within me to help others navigate their own struggles with being stuck. Just as the lyrics of “Defender” beautifully express, God is indeed the ultimate defender of our hearts, picking up our pieces and reintroducing us to His unfailing love.

”God himself is in Jerusalem’s towers, revealing himself as its defender.“ Psalms‬ ‭48‬:‭3‬ ‭NLT‬‬

So, as we journey forward, may we remember the transformative power of showing up and allowing God to work in our lives, knowing that He is always there, ready to heal and strengthen us.

https://youtu.be/ncYyDQW0L-A?si=1fkc3HgYDv1YbhrC