Last year, I found myself in a weakened state—and Satan seized the opportunity to torment me.
I felt stuck. Unmotivated by almost everything—my work, my relationships, even my walk with the Lord. I was going through the motions without any real feeling. I lived like I was lost, and I didn’t know how to find my way out.
That’s when the lies got louder.
You hold no value.
You’ll never measure up.
Remember what they said about you?
Satan repeated the negative words spoken over me in my early years and amplified them until I could barely hear the truth. And in that fragile place, I believed them.
I remember taking a walk one day, crying out—literally crying out—to the Lord.
And He met me.
Right there.
Right in the middle of the mess.
All I had in me was this: I showed up.
That’s what He spoke to my heart. Just show up.
So I did. I showed up for quiet time, and He was there.
He listened.
He began healing my heart.
He gently revealed the roots behind the perception of being stuck.
He not only restored my faith—He strengthened it.
He didn’t just revive my motivation—He gave me passion to empower others through their own weakened seasons.
Most of all, He redeemed my relationship with Him—and made it more intimate than ever.
And it all began with one small act of surrender: I showed up.
A friend reminded me of a song that helped her during a similar time—“Defender” by Francesca Battistelli. The bridge echoes what my heart felt:
“When I thought I lost me
You knew where I left me
You reintroduced me to Your love
You picked up all my pieces
Put me back together
You are the defender of my heart”
That’s exactly what He did.
When I couldn’t find myself, He already knew where I was.
When I was too broken to fight, He defended me.
When all I had left was a whisper—He answered it with love.
This season taught me something I’ll never forget: there is power in simply showing up. Even when all you can offer is your presence and a cry for help, God will meet you there.
He is the healer. The restorer. The defender of your heart.
“God himself is in Jerusalem’s towers, revealing himself as its defender.”
Psalm 48:3 NLT
So if you’re in a place where you feel stuck or numb, let this be your encouragement today: just show up. God is already there. And He’s not done with your story.
🎵 Listen to “Defender” by Francesca Battistelli
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