There was a season in my walk with God when, if you asked me, I would have said, “I trust God. I believe in grace.” And I meant it. But underneath that belief, I was still quietly working. Working to be enough. Working to prove I was serious. Working to earn the feeling of being close to God. It didn’t look like rebellion. It looked like devotion. I was serving. I was learning. I was showing up. But if I’m honest, underneath all of it was fear. Fear that if I slowed down, I would disappoint God. Fear that if I didn’t keep proving myself, I would drift. Fear that closeness with God depended on my consistency. Beneath all of that was one unspoken question: Have I done enough? One day, in a quiet moment, the Holy Spirit gently brought a question to my heart: “Why are you trying to earn what My Son already paid for?” That question stopped me. Because I realized I wasn’t serving from rest. I was serving to try to reach rest. This week on the podcast, I talked about this very thing — the hidden striving many of us carry in our spiritual lives